This is the life you want
Love blinded me; it made me vulnerable. I never believed in love till it tore me apart; it took from me the one thing I needed the most: courage. I made mistakes, I made him my everything, I would never let anything harm him or bring him down, I couldn’t see him upset, his feelings and his problems became mine. When he was happy I was happy when he was upset I was upset. I told myself everyday that he was my destiny and he was the only thing that could possibly make me happy. I was wrong, I didn’t have the courage to face reality, to see beyond this bubble that I made my life; where only he and I existed. The pain I feel today, exists deep within me, in a place where nobody will find it, some place it will always remain. The pain of heartbreak is one that is never truly forgotten. The pain of seeing someone in a completely different light, the pain of living a lie, the pain of not being the only one for someone, the pain of promises made and broken, the pain of being so in love and suddenly so alone. I promised to never let go, and I never did, he let me go in his heart, he didn’t need to say it, he had already done it. And no matter how much I tried to salvage what was left of my broken heart the truth remains: in a toxic relationship only one can survive; me or him.