I’m not usually the type to go on a rant about love and such, but there are certain things that i know that we all feel at some point in the first half of our lives and some of us go through it earlier than others. but no matter how early or late, the feelings and meaning never gets any less significant.
But sometimes, you really cant explain the feeling, when you’re so engorged in someone, when they become your life, when the become all you think about at night before you sleep, when everything you see reminds you of them, and when you feel so close to someone, yet you’re so far away. Because the truth of the matter is, more times than not, you dont get what you want, you dont get the fulfillment you need, the feelings you have, the extent to which you love someone, doesn’t balance out. And that’s when you feel like your whole world is crashing down around you. The feeling is so unbearable, you cannot make sense of it.
For the next days, weeks, and maybe months of your life, all you think about is him, your thoughts wonder whether he even cares or thinks about how you feel, every think you see reminds you of him, his picture becomes a haunting memory you wish to erase, your heart has sunk down to your stomach and cannot find a way back up, his laughter echoes in your head, and your friends constantly tell you you can do so much better than him, but deep down inside you know, that you dont want to do better, when you’ve got perfect right there infront of you. The feeling is suffocating you from within and you dont see a way out..
But one day, not too far away, you need to know, that you will breathe again